no recognition.. no surprise..

i was also thinking about how i do my stretches (range of motion exercises at my counter EVERY DAY in my kitchen and range of motion exercises EVERY NIGHT) and i also walk up and down the hallway of this apartment on my floor for 15 minutes EVERY DAY and how amanda and everyone else refuses to give me credit for that or take that into consideration. IF i didn't stay active- i KNOW that i'd be getting hurt MORE and have to be hauled off to a nursing home by now. i'm expected not to work on being an actual productive piece of this society JUST because i'm disabled with a traumatic brain injury FOR THE CONVENIENCE OF ALL MY SORRY EXCUSE OF A "LOVING" FAMILY (except joe and jay aren't sorry excuses).. EVEN THOUGH I KNOW THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ACTUALLY WORK WITH ACCOMODATIONS TO HELP THEM ACTUALLY BE A PRODUCTIVE PIECE OF THIS SOCIETY SO THEY CAN ACTUALLY WORK JOBS (and i'm not talking those remedial jobs of putting cardboard boxes together or something my living room wall could do). when i was in the car accident i was in, i basically died because now EVERYONE looks at what they don't have time to consider that i have the ability to do and just assumes i can't do them because IT'S FASTER AND EASIER FOR THEM TO DO IT THEIRSELVES SINCE I AM TOO DISABLED TO DO EVERYTHING! i just got the opportunity to actually help myself look more constructive and useful when i started working at sabathani community center. they didn't go assuming i was too disabled or stupid to ACTUALLY HELP people. the hours that i volunteer there have been cut to just one day now though (i'm assuming it's because they wanna give more people the opportunity to volunteer). i'd also like to be compensated so i can actually put a working job on my resume but volunteering is better than nothing. i read over the job description of the job i'm interviewing for tomorrow a few times, hopefully that helps me with the interview tomorrow.